I kept it super low key with my son today and took him to Easter Mass at our local church. The building was filled with people with some left standing the whole time.
During the homily, a short Filipino woman in her 70s, walked towards our bench and sat next to me. She was a cute little old woman. Her energy was so strong; I could not help but turn to look at her from time to time just to smile at her. She would smile at me back then we would return our focus on the Priest. As we read the scriptures aloud from the big projector screen, her voice lit up the room. She prayed loud and she sang her heart out. She had the lyrics memorized while I was over in my holy space mumbling the verse Lol. Playing it off by tapping my son on the head and pulling on his arm just to get his attention. Attendees even turned around to look at her as if they were bothered. I personally had no issue with it. Her voice was beautiful. Then suddenly the vibe changed.
In the Catholic Church, some of us receive Communion. In 2007, I attended RCIA classes at Christ the King church on Thursday nights. Then in 2008, I completed the III and IV Sacrament. I received the Eucharist for the first time, which is a thin, round, tasteless wafer given by the Priest (Body of Christ)
It was time to receive the Eucharist during Mass. We stood up and waited in line. I normally tell my son to walk in front of me since he has not been through Communion yet. Nevertheless, I tell him to walk up to the Priest with his arms crossed against his chest so he can bless him. Then I follow behind and receive the bread. After receiving the bread, we both walked back to the bench and got on our knees and prayed. While I was praying on my knees, I looked to my right at the woman and she was in tears. I was in shock. I could not understand why this happy little old woman was singing joyously one moment and then crying the next. I overheard her praying hard and fast in Tagalog and she was in tears! In addition, that is when I realized that she was hurting inside. I slowly understood why she prayed and sang so loudly – she wanted God to hear her.
A huge part of me wanted to stop praying and give a hug but instead, I shifted my focus and prayed for her healing. She was obviously hurting inside and all I wanted to do is pray to God that she will be okay. I am not a super religious woman, but I believe in the power of prayer and I continue to pray for those who yearn for healing – I am one of those people.